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[6.18.06 (Sunday) 7:07pm]

Why is it that every time I put my heart out there, it always gets shattered?  I'm depressed and feeling more worthless than ever.  I guess that's what I get for telling someone I love them.

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Too many questions in my head [6.09.06 (Friday) 8:38pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

What do you do when someone you used to be in love shows up again?  What do you say to them?  What am I supposed to do?  I've spent the past three years trying to get over this person and I really have no idea what to do.  I think I still love him .  I think about him all the time.  I still dream about him.  It wasn't his fault that all that shit went down when it did.  He just suffered through it too.  Do I tell him about all the lies that people fed him?  Do I tell him I think I still might be in love with him?  What do I do?  The thought of him still brings a smile to my face when I think about him and some of the good times we shared.  I never really got a chance to tell him I loved him.  I loved him when I was involved with someone else and I never said anything.  I loved him long before I even realized it.  I just woke up on morning and the first thing on my mind was him, not the boyfriend I was in a relationship with.  But I couldn't say anything.  My best friend liked him.  Eventually I ended up hurting her too because he was finally with me.  I was afraid.  I did'n't want to hurt any one, but it couldn't be avoided.  Now he's with someone else and I think it's killing me inside.  I want to tell him how I feel, but I don't want to ruin what he has.  Even if it means I won't be happy, not knowing if he feels the same.  At least he'll be with someone that may be better for him.  After we broke up, the only thing I could do was cry because I knew as soon as it all happened that it was over and the only thing I could think about is that night at his house when he whispered he loved me in my ear.  I still dream about it.  I still remember every detail of that night and how he held me to him, his arm wrapped around my waist.  The way he kissed me and I knew he wasn't lying when he spoke those three words in my ear.  I smile thinking about it, but it also brings tears to my eyes, knwoing he'll never be mine again.  Knowing that I'll never get to be in his arms or have him hug me and tell me everything will be okay and he's there for me.  I would give up so much to be with him, but I know I can't.  I just hope he believes me if I ever can get the courage to tell him the truth about what happened the last day i talked to him.

Yeah, I'm in a bit of a depressed mood and I'm emotional and everything, so some encouraging words or anything just to make me feel better would really make me feel better guys!

Jamz

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[4.24.06 (Monday) 3:16pm]
Hey guys, okay I hate to do this but I made a Hilary Duff comm a while ago and it's really not doing much of anything, but I want it to, so if anyone who like Hil could join would be great!  I'm also thinking of making a GC comm, but I'm not 100% sure yet!

our_hilaryd

That's the comm and it's run by me and hang_thedj who made a really cute layout for it, so join if you would and promote if you want!  I just want it to be a good comm.

XO_Jamz_OX
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[4.10.06 (Monday) 3:39pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Some people on LJ really need to be put in their place.  Seriously.  I'm a co-mod over at a Hilary Duff comm(hilarycorner) and I stated my OPINION on something and a certain someone decided to tell me my OPINION was wrong!  WTF???  Bitch, you do not tell my my OPINION is wrong.  Opinions are like assholes and everyones got one!  I'm not gonna give the user away.....oh fuck it!  It was labeaugachis and I DON'T give a fuck who you are, you can kiss a big fat donkey shlong!  I fucking hate when people tell me my opinion is wrong.  If that's what I think, then it's not wrong to me and I really don't apprieciate her calling me naive so FUCK YOU YOU DUMB BITCH!!!  Honestly, some people shouldn't have the right to open their fucking mouths when all they're gonna do is run you down and tell you you're wrong and I fucking hate that!  She says shes a fan of Hil's music, blah, blah, blah, but she's just a stupid bitch with nothing better to do than make herself feel better by saying everyone else is wrong.  That's like that bull-shit she pulled over at gc_pics with __track11.  Deleting her fucking posts just because it had Joel and Hilary in them from the Kids Choice Awards!  And she said Paris Hilton wasn't skinny!  LMFAO!!!  Yeah and I'm the fucking Queen of England !!! If the bitch isn't skinny then what the fuck is she? Oh wait I know, ANOREXIC!!! At least Hilary Duff said she was working out and quit eating junk.  Plus, and I know this for a FACT, that depending on your height you're supposed to be a certain weight and if you don't weigh enough OR too much then it's VERY unhealthy and you can get a type of diabetes.  But anyway, that's not the fucking point!  Someone should really tell this bitch she pissed off the wrong girl.  I'm not starting any drama over at the comm cause it'll just get deleted and I don't really want to feed to it.  I just REALLY needed to vent cause....URGH, it pissed me off! So a big FUCK YOU to labeaugachis!!

Alright enough of my ranting!  I gotta go run and blow off this steam!  Oh btw, I'm leaving this post public so labeaugachis can see EXACTLY what I think of her, the stupid bitch!

Later

XO_Jamz_OX

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Friends Only!!!! [2.25.06 (Saturday) 8:21pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

   
FO banner made by:  elin_123_

Yeah, so my journal, like so many others is friends only. Don' like it? Then hit the fucking road.  I do have a few rules for my journal though.

No bashing eachother
No haters
Please have at least a few things in common with me
If you hate gays, then get the fuck out
If you're racist get the fuck out<
Don't bash celebrities I have stated that I have interest in (like Hilary Duff). If you don't like her then cool, but don't bitch about her here. That's what anti communities are for
No drama unless it comes from me. Hey, it is my journal

That's it guys! If you wish to be added, then comment and I'll add you or I won't. Depending on my mood, but I'll most likely add you. I'm just nice like that. You don't have to add me first, unless you just want to. It doesn't matter to me

The owner of this journal,
              Jamie

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